I have been married to my husband for 7 years. I am almost 30. Our marriage is practically over, and we live separately within the same house. We don't have children, so getting a divorce is relatively easy, but I hesitate because I'm almost 30 and fear I won't find another partner.
There's no point in staying together since things aren't working out with my husband, but his only redeeming quality is that he earns well. I can buy anything I want and live comfortably, so even though our marriage is over, I feel it's a waste to get divorced.
However, my sexual desire is something I can't ignore. Of course, there's no sex with my husband. I'm at the peak of my sexual desire, but I have no partner, so I resort to using toys I bought online for masturbation.
But even that doesn't satisfy my desires. I don't know if my sexual desire is too strong or if this is normal, but I am constantly overwhelmed by it.
So, I decided to cross the line. I desperately wanted to have sex, so I looked for a partner online. It was my first time, so I was desperate to find someone.
Since I have money, I searched with the message, "Is there a man who can satisfy my desires in exchange for financial support?" I didn't think I would find someone easily, but contrary to my expectations, I received many responses.
From the countless emails, I chose the man who seemed the most skilled at sex and contacted him.
It turned out that he was also full of sexual desire and wanted to meet immediately. I had been waiting for a man this eager. I was excited, imagining what he would do to me.
We decided to meet that day at a convenience store in a hotel district. I was nervous because it was my first time and I didn't know what to expect.
The meeting place was a convenience store in a hotel district. I arrived early and was filled with anticipation when a man approached me. He was my type in both appearance and build. We were both so pent-up that we kissed passionately in front of the convenience store without even greeting each other properly.
I was already completely wet. I invited him to a nearby hotel. When we arrived, he didn't enter the hotel immediately but pulled me into a corner, leaned me against the wall, and started undressing me and caressing me.
This rough behavior was incredibly arousing. He knelt down, lifted my skirt, and started performing oral sex on me. The combination of the long-awaited oral sex and the situation made me climax quickly.
He then carried my trembling body into the hotel. In the elevator, he made me kneel and forcefully inserted himself into my mouth. He held my head and thrust his hips. It was a new experience for me, and though it was painful, it was also exciting.
When the elevator reached our floor, he walked to the room with himself still exposed. As soon as we entered the room, we continued where we left off.
I had always fantasized about this kind of play, having watched rape-themed adult videos during masturbation. That day, I was treated roughly as a tool for his sexual release. I was made to climax multiple times and was ejaculated inside repeatedly.
He seemed satisfied after climaxing multiple times and collapsed on the bed, exhausted. But I revived him with oral sex, got on top, and rode him to climax again.
Even then, my accumulated sexual desire wasn't satisfied. I knew he was no longer in the mood, but I kept reviving him and riding him to climax over and over again.
Eventually, he left the hotel without taking any money, almost as if he was fleeing. Where did his initial sexual desire go? Or is my sexual desire abnormal?
Is there no man who can treat me roughly and satisfy me repeatedly? If such a man exists, I want to meet him. I will look for a man who can satisfy me all night long in a Western country.
If such a man exists, please meet me.
