This is my first time here (*＾＾*；
I am 24 years old, but I got married last year and divorced after 10 months.
We weren't very close when we were dating, and I thought living together after marriage would improve things, but it got worse. We were separated for half of the 10 months of marriage (ToT)
We hardly had any intimacy while dating, maybe once or twice a month.
Neither of us was very interested in intimacy until I met someone who made me feel pleasure.
I went through high school and vocational school, dated a few people, and of course, had intimacy, but looking back, it was all very bland. I guess I was like a dead fish? (＾＾；
I work at a bank, so my life was not very stimulating.
Shortly after the divorce, my ex-husband's senior, John, who I only communicated with via messages and never gave my phone number to, reached out to me after a long time.
"It must have been tough."
John had listened to my complaints about my then-boyfriend (now ex-husband) through the computer even before we got married.
I opened up to him through messages.
After I finished telling him the whole story of my divorce, he said one more thing.
"I'll hold you."
Honestly, I was surprised. John is 30 years old, very serious, and a hardworking CEO.
But at parties, he's known as the "King of Dirty Jokes."
There were rumors that he had been with many women, and normally I would have been put off, but for some reason, that day, I replied, "Please teach me the joy of being a woman."
John didn't seem surprised and said, "Sure."
I was honestly scared, but since I didn't know the joy of being a woman and was divorced, I thought it would be okay even if things got messy.
That day, we exchanged phone numbers for the first time and decided to meet the next day (it was a Sunday). I was very nervous.
John came to pick me up at the meeting place.
I got into the passenger seat, and he smiled and said, "Let's go."
The car had completely black windows and leather seats. I felt like a VIP.
Then suddenly, he said, "Show me your panties."
At first, I resisted, but determined to change myself and become an adult, I lifted my skirt.
I was wearing cotton panties, and John said, "I can see your hair through them."
I felt myself getting wet down there.
It was the first time I felt this way. Then he said, "Take off your panties."
I didn't know if it was harassment, but I thought it would be okay if this was the end, so I took them off.
He spread my legs a little and started touching me while we were waiting at a traffic light.
"You're already wet. Maybe you like this more than you think?" he said.
I just looked down.
The black windows made it less embarrassing, but John's words made me wetter.
While touching me, he said, "I'm going to fill you up with my seed."
Embarrassingly, I didn't know what 'seed' meant.
I instinctively said, "Okay."
I had never had anyone finish inside me, not even in my mouth.
Then we went to a hotel, and he told me to stay half-naked.
I thought it was a strange order. Usually, you take off your panties last, but this time it was first.
"Look at yourself in the mirror. What a lewd position."
It was really an obscene position. Being naked only from the waist down. My face and body turned red with embarrassment.
John took out a vibrator and a camera from his bag.
He took pictures of me in that position, making sure I didn't cover myself.
I had seen vibrators in videos but never used one.
"I'll make you feel good now," he said with a smile.
He used the vibrator on my already wet area.
After I climaxed with the vibrator, John started licking me.
I climaxed again, and my head felt like it was going to explode.
Then we took a bath together. It was the first time I saw John naked.
I was overwhelmed by the pleasure of being washed and touched in ways I had never felt before, and I clung to John.
Then, with his half-erect penis in front of me...
Later, he said, "You were bad at it," so I guess I was, but at that moment, I wanted his penis so badly that I licked it with all my might.
It got bigger and bigger, reaching a size I had never seen before.
I couldn't take it all in my mouth, so John stroked it while I licked it.
"I'm going to come soon! I'll finish in your mouth!" he said.
I had always thought it was dirty, but I wanted it so badly that I nodded.
His penis throbbed and released into my mouth.
It was bitter, but I swallowed it.
Then, without being allowed to wear a bathrobe, I was told to masturbate on the bed while completely naked.
I had occasionally masturbated before, so I did it in a very erotic way.
I wanted John's penis so badly.
I wanted John to get hard from watching me masturbate.
It was the first time I felt this way. I even thought I might be a pervert.
I couldn't help but ask, "John, please put it in."
He smirked and said, "You were a horny woman all along," which made me very embarrassed, but he put it in right away.
John's thick and long penis.
The pleasure was unlike anything I had ever felt. I felt like I was going to faint.
In the midst of it, he said, "I'm going to come inside!" and I instinctively said, "Please release a lot!"
I felt his penis throb and release inside me.
I felt incredibly happy.
After that, I got my period, so I didn't get pregnant, but since that incident, I have been John's toy.
John says he's a playboy and not to fall in love with him, but I love him.
Now, all my pubic hair is shaved, and he makes me go naked in the mountains, go shopping with a vibrator inside me, masturbate in front of strangers, and do other things.
John always finishes in my mouth, inside me, or in my anus, and I feel joy from it.
Have I become a pervert?
